We now have a diagnosis: left vestibular hypofunction! I never made the connection of my brain fog and visual symptoms to my inner ear!! In October I mentioned my symptoms to my otolaryngologist (who I am followed by twice yearly). In 1983 I was diagnosed with a rare middle ear tumour. A panel of pathologists deemed it malignant, or at least "invasive". I went for a second surgery in 1984 to have a complete removal. I woke up with the room spinning for a couple of days and it took some time to get my balance back. Most people find dizziness and imbalance disconcerting. For me, it takes me back to waking up in that hospital room!! My otolaryngologist ordered a VHIT (video head impulse test). This test determines if there is a loss of function in your inner ear balance function. If there is, your eyes will make compensating movements to help your body figure out where you are in space. The eyes and brain take over a lot more of the balance function when the ear is functioning below par. This explains the brain fog and visual symptoms! The test was positive; I was diagnosed with a "left vestibular hypofunction". Now I wait for a follow-up appointment with my otolaryngologist on February 25. I've been doing a lot of reading and research and it seems that the treatment for this problem is vestibular physiotherapy to help adapt to the hypofunction. The test results also indicate that some of the hypofunction is likely the result of my visual impairment (severe astigmatism with prisms in my glasses). So I may end up seeing a vision specialist as well.
As a result of the diagnosis I cancelled my booth at Quilt Canada for June 2019. Sorry to disappoint, but I am going to focus on my commission totally over the winter without the extra stress and distraction of dyeing hundreds of meters of fabric for my booth. I have some lovely days of teaching booked in Nova Scotia in May. I know this group and I know they will be understanding when I need to have quiet evenings so I will be functional during the workshop days. So I plan to finish my commission, go teach in Nova Scotia and then RELAX. Yes, I have a vestibular disorder, but I have been fortunate that I don't have the spinning/throwing up kind of vertigo (and hope I won't).
Oh I should also mention that before I got the diagnosis, I got a prescription for cbd oil. It helped immensely with the anxiety, but when I got to a dose that helped with that my dizziness got worse. I've stopped using it.
Thank you to those of you who listened when I felt like I was sounding like a hypochondriac after my latest symptoms and tests. Most of you had no idea I'm sure, and many have problems of their own. It's a reminder to be kind as we have no idea what battles others are facing. Many illnesses are invisible. I am also learning that how we respond to and think about our illness can make it worse than it actually is. With meditation I am working on this.
I have also pulled back from teaching at Haliburton School of Art + Design this summer. While I enjoy teaching there, it requires a lot of effort and energy.
Hey, I can't be that bad, can I? I drove 3600 km on a teaching trip in October/November and made it, although I felt "off" a lot of the time. Continuing to teach on a reduced schedule, with lots of rest in the evenings and between bookings, is the best thing for me and my mental health. I expect to be at Quilt Canada in June in a more relaxed capacity so am happy to meet up with friends, and if you need fabric, I'm sure we can arrange it.
The commission is coming along well and I will be posting with an update soon.
In the mean time, here are photos from our Christmas visit with my 94 year old Dad, who we found sporting a handsome mustache for the first time in his life! That's my sister to the right of me.
This is my husband Pete to the left of me.
In addition to working on the commission, I've been learning to knit. After knitting a few dishcloths just to get a bit of practice, I decided to make a scarf.
A little bit of wonkiness. I know what happened and will avoid it in my next piece.
I decided I would be more likely to wear a cowl than a scarf so stopped the scarf short and joined the edges.
I've had a lot of compliments on this cowl, and it doesn't really matter that it isn't perfect.
I am determined to get to the point where I can knit a pair of socks. This pattern I picked up at our local knitting and spinning store makes sense. It is by Donna Snider of Roots and Rain Yarn (oh my her hand-dyed yarn is amazing).
Practicing doing the cabling on the sock cuff. Nearly ready ...
But got distracted by this gorgeous Japanese yarn (also from Wabi Sabi) and thought I might need a cowl with some red in it to go with my red sweaters.
The weather outside has been frightful, so it is a great time to hibernate. Hope you are safe and warm and well wherever you are!